'not yet asleep'.

it's late. i know, and yes, to think we had a talk about sleeping early with our dear ex-recruit officers and mr leow. haha. but whatever -.- i can't sleep. not now. i'm not in the mood to... though my eyes hurt.

i know if i just close my eyes, a lot of things i don't wanna recall will just come back, flooding into my head. and somehow, as usual, they always have a way of keeping my eye lids glued to each other, shut. despite... my existent objections.

i like random words. they help me express things i don't have the guts to write out in whole thick blocked sentences. and i just freely use random words and put them together, somehow letting them come together and make sense... and well, maybe, just maybe, only those who really know me would understand. or at least have a higher possibility of doing so.