'if we could all fly'.

had fajitas for dinner. it was suppose to be nice. and i'm sure they were, it's just that i couldn't really chew on most of the food that was on the table, and so i ate fajitas without meat in them. for the first time, in ever, i lived a whole day without eating any meat, other than fish.


many of us dream of flying. some want to feel the wind on their faces, others to look at everything from above. some want to touch the clouds, others want to play in the rain, high above the ground. well, all i want is to fly away, away from everything. to fly back, back to the past. to fly into, into safe arms that will keep me warm, once again. once again.


i did want to be there with you. i was just scared, very very afraid. just like i still am. because the last time i was there, i gave up everything, for you, to you. i thought you'd have kept me safe from all evil in the world, thought you'd have fought all my fears away. but, instead, i gave everything, for everything, and to everything that i was running from.