'people grow up, people learn. i don't wanna be hurt, again'.

sometimes, we learn from mistakes, i guess. and we learn that there are things that just can't stay the way they are. that things have to be changed or else mistakes will just repeat. and it's really silly. it's really silly to carry on with pretence ignorance, ignoring all past mistakes and livin' as though they never happened.

well, i know they did. and i'm just tyring to do something to avoid things happening again. to avoid being hurt again. to avoid killing myself again. because i don't wanna go through the same thing over and over again. it's really really silly. an the pain can kill.

it's not easy. and it won't be. i'm sorry if i'm hurting anyone, but it's something i've got to do for myself. for once. i can't keep killing myself, i've been too silly.