'i'd do anything for time to pause'.

aww. i went out today. haha. came back, dead tired. haha. don't blame me. i stayed up till 5:30 am the night before talking on the phone. ha. i probably wasted all my energy laughing and laughing and laughing about everything stupid joshua said. and the stupid blabbering i made... haha.

haha. so i woke up at 1pm when my tuition teacher came. practically jumped out of bed, put on a bra, and changed my t-shirt into something more presentable and went out into the living room. haha. so paiseh lah. all wake up late de. and plus she came at 1 so i wouldn't wake up late. haha. she guessed wrong...

yay anyway. i left the house at 4++ to go to esplanade. haha. i made jinjun wait for rather long. i felt damn bad lah. blah. sorry hor mister (: haha. went home after about two hours after going to check out trumpets at plaza sing yamaha. ha. i like silent strings! (: they look so cute and sexy =X haha really rally sexy.. like phe-wew type of sexy.

okay anyway, i got back and fell dead asleep on my bed. haha my sis woke me up at 9 to eat dinner. i hope i don't grow fat eating so late.. i still feel guilty from eating the brownie at 3am last night. haha...

i don't think i'll bathe. oh well, bathed before i left the house (: haha. thanks to my blogging i'm neglecting the person i'm on the phone with... so evil. haha. okay. bye.

'you turned my whole world upside down'.

i am so dead tired. i feel like collapsing onto the floor... i can't think, i can hardly breathe, my eyes are closing on me. my mind is a total blank. i've never felt so bad in such a long long time. i want to stop these feelings of insecurity and emptiness... sometimes, i wonder what exactly gets to me. times like these.

went out in the noon to meet weishan, sarah, izyan and michelle at the woodlands library. had a meeting about the performance for tomorrow. i think it's very last-minute and that we aren't gonna perform very well... if only we had more time. but this is all we have, so i guess we jsut have to make do with it. oh well...

went to joshua's house, with geraldine who joined us at the library later, to pass him a card. haha. gerladine and i were so silly lah. walked a super long way to his house when there was a whole other route half the distance. joshua made us feel a lot better by telling us we were the first to have done so... when i got there, joshua offered me a can of beer (: i humbly agreed. haha. it was Tiger Bear Classic... tasted better. not as bland.

anyway, after finishing the can, it left a horrible bitter after-taste in my mouth. urghs. and joshua asked if i checked the expiry date. ha... just needed to hear that from him lah.

oh well, made my way to city hall with joshua, geraldine left to join her friends. ha. i finally got to say hi to kai lin! (: haha. didn't stare at her dumbstruck and stammering foolishly -as joshua puts it- as i did the other time. ha. i had to address myself as the girl who walks dogs. i just had to. she didn't know who i was... how disappointing. haha.

went off after, by myself, to buy huiming's present. haha. i bought her this cute lil' thing. rather general an item but not something someone would give to just anyone. hope she likes it. cause i do (:

i'm off to eat dinner and after this i'll have to send I Can't Smile Without You to michelle. urghs. i'm lazy to do the attachment.

I drift, I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like the putty in your hands

I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a roller coaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who i am
Just take my hand and

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you

I had a dream that i was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour
I was bound to crash and die
But out of nowhere you came and rescued me
There must be some grace in the touch of your face
I'm so happy that I've found you
I'm no longer afraid

Oh ' cause you
Save me from this place
Heaven knows i'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting

Before i met you
Life was slow-mo
So slow-mo
I thought i had it figured out
But you came and turned my whole world upside down

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows you've come to

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you

'merry christmas'.

it's christmas. the season of giving and joy. haha. why is it i don't feel the joy? nor the feel of giving? must be the fatigue... i feel horribly stone. i feel horribly down. ha. this isn't right... oh well.

oh. had a christmas dinner just now. entire extended family (: we had wonderful food. leg of ham, bread stuffing, turkey, brownies, salad, fries, baked potatoes... i think there were more. i have no idea what though. i totally forgot. oh and how could i forget? wine! (: haha. zibbibo white wine and winecrest red =X hee.

okay okay. then after that we played Taboo. oh gosh. i am horrid at that game! haha. Hon Long is good. so is Yan Tze and erm... my sis? yeah. i think. haha interesting game. horribly stressful lah... i don't work very well under pressure. haha. i am so tired... -puts a toothpick in my eyes- ahh. better (:

hm. i'd need to end soon. gotta bathe and off i go to sleep! (: yay. haha. hafta wake up early tomorrow eh.

yeah. this christmas, i can't feel anymore blessed by receiving a gift from the heaven's. one so wonderful, my love, almost unable to be expressed... ha. again i thank the heaven's. for i have never experienced such great joy and happiness to have received such a blessing... i love you (:

there. done. haha. -blink blink- okay. i'm having difficulty jsut trying to keep my eyes open. shall go bathe le (: bye!

'something simple'.

yes, i started a blog all over again. well, this time i'm not gonna waste my time designing a blog template because i find it quite a waste of time now. i mean, a blog is where you post about your happenings. where people, state a point, vent their emotions, whine, and wallow in self-pit (: mostly.

so this time, i'm gonna do just that. haha. i can almost imagine you clicking the x button on the right hand corner of your screen already... but oh well, ihave nothing to say have i?

okay. today, i went to ang mo kio library to meet weishan and my batch to discuss the program of farewell. i slacked at home. i'm awfully sorry. i thank jinjun for telling me to get up and get going or else i would have slacked the day through at home. but i've gotta say that he scolded me rather unpleasantly =X

anyway, got there about and hour late. or slightly more. when i got there, planning was done. but whatever they planned couldn't come up to the expected time of 10 minutes... so we had to start all over again. haha. joewei is damn funny lah. ah, haven't have the energy to recall and elaborate so subject stops here.

i dropped my library books off! at least one of which i have finished reading: Dumb Love. spastic book. really spastic... i mean rather immature. it's like written about a 10-year-old kid or something, who doesn't have an idea of his or her life... or what the world and people in it are like. don't borrow it. don't don't don't.

i figured minjun's a horribly insensitive girl =X at least from recent observations of her actions. or my actions. haha. i swear i'll change! (: and i mean it..