'losing everything, for once, i look forward'.

tomorrow's the semi-finals for debate! anderson debate team is going against bowen. and once again i'm freakin' out and i'm nervous. i want to finally be able to do a job that i'm proud of and not screw up anymore. i hope i'll make it tomorrow, and i hope we'll win. we need to. i'm done with losing to everything that matters...

i'm piled up with tuition sessions on saturday. 8 to 9.30 would be chinese, followed by 10.30 to 12 for math. kinda sucks and it's gonna take up a hell lot of enegy and time but i'm gonna try to make it to east coast for some good cycling. i need to go... i want to. i want to get over this barrier i've been hiding behind.

well, there is something i want to lose right now. every bit of it... actually, i've always wanted to. and now, more than ever. but how?