'no, why only now?'

was it all me? everything? well, i didn't mean that, i didn't mean it that way. you took it absolutely wrongly and although it was a long time ago, i know that i really didn't mean it... i'm sorry. if i had known, if i had seen. i just wanted to see something else, so that everything would go much easier.

but still, nothing changed. it's still the way it shouldn't be. and there's nothing, really, much that can be done.


it's warm, it's really really warm. why am i still shivering?