'they've asked why'.

had Erica, Carmina, Naomi, Pao and Steph over just now. ahaha. gosh, they were so noisy. they almost brought the house down. but we had fun... didn't we? oh well, love them anyhow.


she was in luck. very much so. she was lucky, and i just wish and pray so hard that i could rewind time and replace her. to have that few moments, all to myself. to absorb everything around me and treasure it for life. to see the person i've not known for such a long time. to see the one person who i'd like to get to know again, to speak to once again. it's been a long time, a really long time. too long.

well, i know i wouldn't dare go up and say hi. i've done so much to let that one person down. but i'd just like that one glance, that one moment. to know that he is fine and happy. and to know that he is well and loved, by all around him.

give me that once.




Stuck by Stacie Orrico:

I can't get out of bed today or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way to leave the love behind

I ain't trippin', I'm just missin' you
You know what I'm sayin', you know what I mean

You kept me hanging on a string, why you make me cry?
I tried to give you everything, but you just gave me lies

I ain't trippin', I'm just missin' you
You know what I'm sayin', you know what I mean

Every now and then when I'm all alone
I'd be wishin' you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back, but you never do
I feel like such a fool, there's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool for you

[Chorus]
And I can't take it what am I waiting for?
My heart's still breaking, I miss you even more
And I can't fake it the way I could before,
I hate you, but I love you, I can't stop thinking of you
It's true I'm stuck on you

Now love's a broken record that's been skippin' in my head
I keep singing Yesterday why we got to play these games we play?

I ain't trippin', I'm just missin' you
You know what I'm sayin', you know what I mean

Every now and then when I'm all alone
I'd be wishin' you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back, but you never do
I feel like such a fool

[Chorus]

Every now and then when I'm all alone
I'd be wishin' you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back, but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool for you

And I can't take it what am I waiting for?
My heart's still breaking, I miss you even more
And I can't fake it the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you, I can't stop thinking of you
I hate you, but I love you, I can't stop thinking of you
Don't know what to do, I'm stuck on you


why bother, still? to let myself fall back down to earth, to wake up and realise what's real. to realise that i've lost what i've lost. that i've lost all that's dear to me, all that i thought i treasured enough. to let myself remember, to let myself free.