'give me an explanation please'.

playing mahjong. i'm not feeling on top of the world and so much for feative season and the fun of chinese new year. ha. god, save me for once. take away all my angpao but save me really.

i can't explain this. i have no idea why. it's just killing me and thats all i can go... i've never been so affected in my life. but i just feel like it's hammering this mortal body of mine and shattering every single bone and every single bit of soul in me. long story short, i feel dead and shattered, broken. and gosh i can't even convince myself it's not real...

ha. minjun, stop killing your bloody self and live for once...