'so far down.

ahh. somethings wrong with my right leg. i can't walk. i've been limping ever since i got home. sigh. and just now, when i was blogging, i kinda pressed the 'power' button on my bloody keyboard. got my home com shutting down )x so the whole post was deleted. sob.

i was friggin' tired just now. i decided to sleep. woke up at 10:30 did my english stuff that should have been done ages ago. so i got it done, got my dad to log on for me (: i added a few songs to my iPod, which has bloody pathetic storage space. sigh. i'd just have to make do with it =X

oh yes. i was blogging about me growing so fat that i can't fit into my jeans. sob. but i can wear my sis' halter top. this pink nice thing. i'll need to get a tube top for it though... maybe tomorrow (x after band or something. or wednesday. or tuesday. i don't know... just soon.

i think i'm turning utterly vain. haha. really. and i hate myself for wearing girly clothes but with my hairstyle now, i actually carry them off better. don't blame me xP ha. afterall my theory is that 80% of guys love girly girls who like pink and wear skirts 24/7. assholes =X

thinking about everything just gets my head hurting, my stomach churning, my chest hurting. i don't know what's with me anymore. i'm losing my sanity. i really am. i can't concentrate on anything, everything. i bet it's only me... and i'm holding on for too long. what else can i do?

okay. done. goodnight. bye.