'now that you're gone'.

hehs. i cut my hair today! (: i have bangs =X boo. haha. i DID NOT want them. it's just that Joanne, my hairdresser -not MINE but yeah... you get me- finished trimming and washing my hair. i told her i wanted it so that i actually LOOKED like i had a fringe. more or less, i wanted my fringe shorter than the rest of my hair. she nodded. i told her just a bit. so she took a clip and pinned up my hair. i thought it was weird to cut my fringe in that manner... then snip snip, my hair fell onto my lap. just like that. i wanted to CRY! )x

haha. oh well, it WAS traumatic. but i don't look all that bad so oh well.. whatever. my sis says Joanne's always like that. my sis and my mum kena a lot of time too. like she does what she thinks is nice =X haha. oh well. she did a good job bah =D haha. the 55 bucks was worth it... i like the shampoo smell too! =D hehe.

oh yes. so i went shopping at vivo, again, too. i liked this Topshop skirt but my mum was commenting on the price AND that it didn't look all that good. i too liked this Esprit shorts and top. but oh well... i actually looked a lot older when i wore Esprit stuff (: i liked the designs. so my shop. so not my budget too eh... ha XD

i'm going shopping at Far East tomorrow! =D with my sis. i hope i get nice clothes for new year and stuff (x i want to get a dress! XD hehe. i realised i have NOT worn a dress since... primary 3. which is quite sad so yeah... i'm gonna be nice and lady-like for once (: when i told my mum she asked if i had a boyfriend -.- haha. i felt like saying 'not anymore...' i decided not to (x

yay yay. i like my hair in the strange confused way... haha. whatever (x

aha. Wei Qin and my brother are damn sweet today. in ways i can't describe... watching them makes me feel happy for them. but it just gives me this weird, sick, feeling. like how my stomach churns and i go all nauseous...

i still can't bloody let go yet. i hate myself for that... it's been a week, officially. but honestly, i would say its been almost 3 weeks. and i just have to let go. why can't i? am i the only one? i want to know if it's only me... because i still bloody miss you. and everything else about you that made me smile.

If You're Gone by Matchbox Twenty:

I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think i'm weak, I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
Now I'm relaxed, I can't be sure

I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life
I think I'm scared
I think too much
I know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone, maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
but I can hardly move
If you're gone, baby you need to come home, oh come home
There's a little bit of something me
in everything in you

I bet you’re hard to get over
I bet the room just won’t shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind

I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life
I think I'm just scared that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling

If you're gone, maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
but I can hardly move
If you're gone, baby you need to come home
There's a little bit of something me
in everything in you

I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life and
I think I'm scared
Do I talk too much
I know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone, maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
but I can hardly move
If you're gone, hell baby you need to come home
There's a little bit of something me
in everything in you