'give me an alternative'.

things weren't meant to be this way, or that. at least, i wasn't prepared and i didn't plan for all that has happened or is currently taking place. had this not happened, it would have been something else, i know that, of course. something better perhaps? when would we ever know? how would be we ever? if we did find out, somehow, someday, will there be a way to change everything? perhaps, choose to other alternative. cause i'd love to do just that. anyday, anytime.

i'm tired of losing all the people i love. i'm tired of having to adjust to life without them, to know they'll never return. i'm tired of knowing it's all gonna be different and that i stand alone. i'm tired of everyone leaving and failing to care. i'm tired, and that's just that.


25th december 2008. now that'll be the day.


i shouldn't love you, but i want to.