'it isn't worth it, i know'.

band was really tiring and totally energy consuming. perhaps maybe very emotionally consuming too. i almost broke down at the fact that my playing was disgusting. i really must work on it, but i have been trying, but yet there doesn't seem much that i can do. which is upsetting. but i'm not givin' up. not yet. never.

i can't believe you could do something like that. i am disappointed but i'm yet to know the exact truth. but i'm really hoping i'd hear it from you. you've let me down enough, i don't want to be disappoint in you anymore. i'm gonna have to sacrifice a few things, hopefully, to teach you to be responsible. but if it hurts, i'm sorry. some lessons have to be learnt.


girl, i know you'll never read this, and even if you do, you'll never know it's to you. because, technically, i don't even know you personally. but anyhow, i want to tell you to be careful and watch your step. don't do anything foolish and becareful of how much of yourself you let go. don't turn around and regret how much you've given to someone who doesn't deserve it, please. he's dangerous, and i'm really hoping you'd turn away.

still, you wouldn't know this is for you, would you?


i want you to be my karakiri. i want you to be my one and only karakiri. and i would willingly be your's.

give me your hand.