'missed it'.

alarm clocks. they were made for one purpose - to awaken those in deep sleep, to avoid them from going out of their planned times and being late in any way.

almost everyone, before they fall into deep sleep, would reach out and adjust their alarm clocks, be it of handphone or manual. assuming a manual clock, one would reach out and turn a few screws, get the needle moving right so that it reaches the right line, the right dot, the right point. so that the time in which the alarm would ring, would be precisely correct, so as to avoid any lateness.

well, many a time, not to our wanting, these clocks somehow go out of plan and choose not to ring. and well, we don't really predict these happenings when they do happen. so, not to our wanting too, we spring out of bed, possibly late, and well, try to rush to our activities that we are probably late too... and if not everyone of us, at least i, would say, 'i was sure i set it right.'


today i was sitting in the passenger seat in the car as my mum drove from vivocity towards town. she was asking me how to get there and i took some time to consider the different routes before i replied, 'can go through henderson eh.' and well, by the time i did, my mum drove past the turning into henderson by 1 metre. i swear we could have made an illegal act by swerving and somehow cutting across the white line on the road and turning into henderson... but of course, we weren't the only vehicles, and vehicles, one after another, were turning in too. we didn't stand a chance but move on and find another way to reach town...

yes, we missed the turning. we really did- 'missed it,' she said.


only today when i neared takashimaya did i realise, well, i hadn't been there for a really really long time. and i tried my best to recall when or what the last time was when i was there. i thought and i thought and finally it came to me, i last went to taka to by a box or two of brownies, after band. i had my eupho in hand, my bag around me, my band tee on. and i went to town.

i recall not being alone, physically. i mean, i had company... but somehow, no matter how i really try to convince myself i did really have company, i can't help but recalling being there alone. as always have been...