'when it all falls apart. when it all fell apart actually'.

everything has gone so wrong. not the way i planned, not the way i would ever plan. everything seemed right for a moment. a moment. nothing in my world that looks right, stays right. nothing. ever. sadly... it just makes me wonder why i'm not yet familiar with the feeling of disappointment. occurring yet again and again.

got to love this song by Avril Lavigne, Girlfriend. really catchy. you guys should check out the video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cQ25-glGRzI

sorry. the code for the embed didn't work. oh well. have fun watching the video people. Avril Lavigne's new single is amusingly entertaining... ha.

oh yeah. and a one more nice lyrics of the recent song that played on my mp3. those of which i might have posted before...

Collide by Howie Day:

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
You somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

oh yeah. and Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson:

Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I’m barely hanging on

[Chorus:]
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me is what I pretend to be
So together, yet so broken up inside

Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on

[Chorus:]
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don’t cry on the outside anymore
Anymore

[Chorus:]
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

[Chorus:]
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

When It All Falls Apart by The Veronicas:

I'm having the day from hell
It was all going so well
Before you came
And you told me you needed space
With a kiss on the side my face
Not again

And not to mention
The tears I shed
I shoulda kicked your
Ass instead

I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cause baby

(Chorus)
Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No, ohh

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are
Anymore
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do
When it rains it pours

And not to mention
I drank too much
I'm feelin' hungover
Out of touch
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby

Chorus

Can't it be easier?
Can't I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad every time
Will I be mending
Another one ending once again

Chorus x2

Gotta pick myself up
Cuz baby I'm f'ed up

Chorus

love these songs... kinda, i don't know, relate perhaps. and yeah, i definitely have to pick myself up. ha. since it's already all fallen apart.