'it's like i threw it out'.

so many friendships lost. one of which was something i always needed there. one of which was what kept me smiling and living for the next day. one of which killed me when it was gone. and i miss it now, so much, just so much.

i feel like i threw it out of the window. like i've brought it upon myself when i said those three words. like i lost something so treasured, to myself. as ironic as it seems though, it still will always be that way to me. like i brought so much loneliness upon myself. like i made a sacrifice of eternal friendship to two months of happiness. like i threw my friend away.


this is what alchohol does to a person. drinking is bad.