'spare a little acknowledgement, it wouldn't kill'.

i've finally got my braces on. yesterday actually. and it hurt so so bad, in fact, it still does. so i'm on a sick porridge diet, for god know's how long. and i'm unable to play my eupho. it's upsetting. and really, really depressing.


how do you just forget something that has happened before? how do you leave it all behind and pretend like it doesn't matter? do you feel no guilt, no more? do you feel no pain, no more? all, gone, just like that? how? of course, though, it probably has never mattered too much to you. of course, you probably never cared. of course, you've never felt any guilt because you've never realised all that you did wrong.

it's sick, the way you think the world revolves around you. it's even sicker, the way nothing about everything really matters to you. it's like you only live for yourself, and nothing or no one else. it's like you've never been given a life, and it ashames me to know you.


ever waited for something, for so long, you thought you'd die? ever wanted something, so badly, you thought you're crazy? ever prayed for a miracle, so hard, you thought you'd burst? and when everything happens, and everything comes true, nothing's ever as beautiful as the way you wish it would.