'c'mon, minjun, you can do this'.

nto much of a difficulty really - being nice and all. just stop the snite remarks, the blunt remarks, the outrightly insulting words, and of course, the disgusting horrid thoughts. sure, a huge source of fun will have to disappear but it's worth it all.

i've planned out everything right. i'll not be pushed over of coure, but i'd remember to stop with the uneccessary insults and comments. and for now, i'll stop being a bitch, gradually. it's not possible to be an immediate thing after all... well, i'll just start with one person for now. one person that i should have been nice to, but couldn't, and almost didn't want to.

of course, i'm not gonna be hypocritical, but i'm gonna really stop all the bitchyness, from the inside.

oh, by the way, don't think that putting me on guilt trips work. because, well, they don't! it's just that i'v ebegun to realise that i don't feel guilty about the things other people normally would feel guilty over. and the more i analyzed it, the more i began to see that something is wrong, somewhere. seems like my conscience died after i repeatitively demanded it to shut up...

i'm gonna revive it now.

ahhh. i can do this!


bye bye, fun. i really don't want to leave you behind, but i have to. haven't much of a choice.