'i was waiting for the impossible'.

it was only then, just then, when i finally realised what i had been waiting for all this time- a simple apology. something i never ever received. something so simple and easy, and something that should be said sincerely from the bottom of one's heart.

well, despite it being as simple as it is, i never received it. i never received that one word of apology. five letters. that's all i have really been waiting for. and i decided that, well, i never would receive it and i don't really need it to walk away. i don't need five letters to keep me going. i can survive, and i will.

i wouldn't wait for you to ever apologise. because you won't, i know it, without a doubt. you never do, actually. it's just you. and, knowing that, or hoping that's true, i know that it doesn't matter anymore. because what's done is over and gone.

i was young and i was stupid and i was silly. that, i'm sure of. as for you, i hope it was that way and no other.

now you know.