'let me hear it ring. let me hear the words i wanna hear'.

ha. i guarded my phone like a freak today, to realise that results were to be released by friday. though i doubt i'd receive anything but the hoping is inevitable. every ring, or every message that came in made my heart skip a beat. i jumped out of my chair a thousand times. ahaha.


i don't know why, and i still can't find a reason no matter how deep i search. i don't know why it means so much to me. i really don't. and i don't want it to, but i can't help it. it's something i'm really hoping for. no matter how i try to stop thinking about it, it's etched there, somewhere. and i know it.