'you have no idea'.

i can't seem to care about much anymore. it's strangely worrying. two people, under the same roof as i am, are in pain. physical pain. and i wish i could really shower immense concern and acheive their every need. but horribly, and unfortunately, i'm more dead than i could possibly feel. i'm really too tired to care about anything else, selfish as it may seem.

they'll survive. they're fine.

as am i.

i just need to wallow in this self-pity for now. for now. i'm not you, remember? well, i do.