'that was what i thought'.

i always thought that 'minjun' and 'fickled' never went together. never would. well, yeah, that's what thought or wished. but i guess it was, so far, the biggest mistake i have made of myself. because i've got to realised that there are some views or decisions that i have never stuck to before. and gosh, do i pray now, that i really do. i want to. always have.


i hope you're fine. you suddenly popped into my mine. it's been long since i've spoken to you, and i guess, honestly, i really do miss you. but what is there to do, what's said has been said, and what's done has been done. you may tell another story but we both know that a distance has already been built in between us, something i don't think we'll ever be able to breech. at least, not anymore.


oh, and of course. you. i've started thinking of you to. and, talking about you, too. not as much as i used to, i've to admit, but i still do. and, yes, i miss you too. or i miss what you used to be, or what i knew you to be. it's been forever, a really long a time, since i've really talked to you. and i miss it, i really do. thinking back, you really had a way of reading my mind and i don't think i'll ever find someone who'll be able to, ever. but, well, i just have to say i'm scared of what it'll all be in the end. and maybe i'm paranoid, or maybe, really, people just change too fast and too much, and maybe we both just have. aha. well, you can't deny the age gap too. but i guess, it's just not going to be the same anymore. probably won't ever be. but, if you do know who you are, i'll like to say: thank you for everything. i can't be anymore grateful for all the times you had held my hand through so much. thank you, mister. take care there.


i'm beginning to miss everything about nothing. nothing, because, as sad as it is, they're just not there, or not the way they were, anymore.