'you said you'd always be around. all of you did'.

one after another, you all sashay into my life like huge big wonderful heroes. like a miracle in times of chaos and death. one after another, you all come along and reach out your hand, tell me it's all going to be okay and that you'll always be there. and everytime, i stupidly reach out in naivity. countless times, i've gotta say. and bloody hell, i ask myself, why don't i ever learn to walk away?

each time you reach out your hand and put it over mine, i let my heart succumb to giving in. all of you. i give you my heart, my trust, as a friend. and maybe, i just become a little too over dependant. but hey, you did say you'd always be there. a lie, of course. as always, i ask myself why i didn't know. why i couldn't see. it wasn't that well diguised, in fact, it wasn't even. it was pretty obvious that you were going to turn you back, like all the others, and walk away. leaving me.

'always around for you', it's something i hear so often and then get played on later in the days. but, hell, why doesn't silly minjun ever learn huh? and why don't you jerks just leave? why do y'all still hang around?

gosh. so many, so many versions. one after the other. some say 'i'll always be here', others say things like 'nevermind. you've got me' or even 'i'm here'. still, they all come down to the same point- 'i'll say that i'll always be around but i'll leave you after a while'. friends huh? staying by your side always? same bullshit. all the time.

i'm dead tired, and i've got enough.

twice in one month. thrice in one year.

three of you. you guys meant everything.