'okay, maybe not'.

okay. on the other hand, as i look as my teammates start out doing all the scripts for the first time. i'm feeling really anxious. like, i want to help them, but i can't. i'm not that good myself too. and they look like they really have little idea what to do and all. really worried for tomorrow's debate. it's just practice, i tell myself.


maybe if i keep staring at the same page and i keep flooding myself with jealousy, i'd just overwork that 'jealous spot' in me and i'll explode. and then, that way, i wouldn't be able to feel any sort of jealousy again. ha. not making sense? hm, that's sad. i thought it was a rather good idea.

okay, now, who am i trying to kid?