'i'm going insane'.

not only insane actually. i'm turning schizophrenic. i hear this voice in my mind... Inner Bitch, i used to call it. now, Inner Bitch just ain't shutting up. she keeps screaming this horrible thoughts into my mind. i hate her. i just bloody hate her... lets just say she's influencing me in the way i wouldn't want to be.

i'm feeling insecure. i'm feeling down. i'm feeling bloody afraid. i have no bloody idea what's gotten over me. no bloody idea. but as michelle said: actions play a bigger role than words.

i'm afraid to look at horoscopes now. it seems so true... if it were, i'd just die. i don't want the same thing to happen.

oh my god. i can't believe i'm actually living by the horoscopes. argh. i'm crazy. i'm mad. remind me again.

what the hell did i do in my past life?