'just go'.

i had pizza for dinner! (: hehe. i feel so full though. like stuffed. my tummy is grossly BIG! huge. disgustingly huge. haha. i feel sick thinking of the amount of weight i'm gonna gain! =X urghs. i feel guilty. oh god. i might just turn out bullemic soon. ha.

okay okay (: wait. gimme awhile. i need to erm entertain the people talking to me on msn.

okay. back. oh. and i drank beer. again. but not much. i'm at home. my mum refuses to pour more for me or take anymore in fact... so i stuck with the amount given. which can be almost described as bloody frugal. argh. and i need more. i NEED the alchohol. makes me lighten up. slightly. gets my mind off things. no, gets my mind off.

but the only thing the little frugal amount of beer did to me was make me really really agitated. i feel like shit now. and i'm getting so bloody pissed off at things i shouldn't even be unhappy with. okay fine. not shouldn't. but i don't want to... and if you want me to put me honestly, i have always been slightly unhappy. and somehow i always always manage to push those feelings away, bottle them up. but somehow, something is making the bottle burst from all the pressure and i'm feeling horrible upset now. like pandora's box or something... the way she let the sins out onto the earth.

jeez. if i could just take a axe and hack at...