'not as easy as said. not at all'.

i woke up rather early today! 6 actually. on time bah (: and my mum was supposed to fetch me to school but she had a horrid stomachache and so she gave me 8 bucks to take a cab. i went down at 6:40 am. i waited for a cab for half an hour. by then, i was already late for morning assembly. so anyway, a catholic high asshole walked 10metres in front of me and stole my taxi! i waited a total of 40 minutes before i got one cab for myself...

there was still a family of students behind me. but i'm sorry ): i was late too. sorry neighbours. i couldn't help it. i would have given you the taxi if it had been earlier (: really i would. sorry again =X

anyway, i got into the cab and the uncle asked if i was late. i said yes. he litterally STEPPED ON IT. i almost fell out of my seat. the normal 7minute drive became a 3minute drive. not only that, i had a horrible motion sickness when i stepped out of the taxi. by the time i reached, it was 7:25 am. mr chong saw me but he didn't take my name down. thank god (:

i got to school on time, yes. i was panting, yes. i was sweating, yes. i was agitated, yes. slightly. i was unhappy and down, no =D i felt happy. for once in a long while i stepped into class, smiling. at least from MY knowledge i was =X haha. but there was this horrible thought etched on my mind. i tried to sweep it away... it kept coming back. not really a thought but a distraction... argh. i don't know how to put it =X

so anyway, i tried to push it to the back of my mind. i couldn't. i just bloody damnit, i couldn't. the thought kept popping back at weird, strange moments. and god was it infuriating!i wanted to murder myself. like take a knife and stab stab stab at my head. maybe that way i would kill the thought...

haha. anyway, the class was made to change out sitting places thank to Mrs Ang ): i don't like. i was shifted to sit next to Bo Cheng who totally kept daoing me. he NEVER replied to ANYTHING i said. sheesh. i shifted next to Gabriel who is rather nice to talk to... at least better (: haha. don't worry Weishan =D i won't steal him =X i'm not that evil eh. ha.

okay. i have to go back to my work - art, history and math ):

get outta outta outta my head! =X

Beautiful by Christina Aguillera:

Everyday is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness,
The pieces gone,
Left the puzzle undone,
Ain't that the way it is?

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down, no, no
Cause you are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring you down, oh, no
So don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do(no matter what we do)
No matter what we say(no matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune(yeah, oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go(and everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine(sun will always, always shine)
But tomorrow we might awake
On the other side

'Cause we are beautiful,
No matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down...
Mmm, today

haha. a song by Christina Aguilera. her name makes me laugh too =X haha. i have no idea but these songs just caught my attention. so to Mister Evil Fat, NO, no sacarsm meant here (: haha. i love the lyrics... haha. i think that these two artists are like my two most listened to...