'i drew myself'.

omg omg omg! (: i was drawing the portrait thingy for Mrs Kamal's homework.. we're supposed to draw a person. any person. then it was like the 7th of 8th drawing of a person. it didn't turn out anthing near nice. so i put down the paper, got a new one, grabbed my sharpened pencil and sat before the mirror.

for about half an hour or less, i sat before the mirror and drew what i saw. but i realised -now i understand how Lena felt in Girls In Pants- i couldn't draw what i just SAW. i had to look into me, draw what i FELT. and after i pulled my paper off the pencil... boy, did i like what i drew =D it was better than any portrait i drew. and i love it (: still do. the girl i drew though is utterly pretty.... at least so i think.

dang. why can't people just change into the person they draw =D that way, i'll have PERFECT complexion =X hehs.

haha oh well. i'm happy now (: PLUS i cancelled tuition. chinese tuition. going out for diner with my family tonight =D no particular reason. but oh well (: a good meal wouldn't kill XD

debate was fun. i sucked. no, so it wasn't all fun... it's getting down to WORK now. boring actually. Erica rocked the house down! i swear (x she was fab.

i never felt at such a lost in my life. never. i swear. i'm not coping very well with it.. but i promised i wouldn't give up in myself. and not on life either

Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson:

Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I’m barely hanging on

[Chorus:]
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life

Now all that’s left of me is what I pretend to be
So together, yet so broken up inside

Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on

[Chorus:]
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don’t cry on the outside anymore
Anymore

[Chorus}