'i held on to such junk for much too long'.

i can't believe i held on to such... shit. geez. i'm feeling so damn pissed off. i don't think i have an entire reason to. halfly pissed off at the way or who i've been manipulated by. and halfly by my pure stupidity... i'm supposed to be painting for art in school. my whole painting is red red red. i'm freakin' pissed.

i read that shit. and i just realise that i've been so damn dumb. i've been so so so used! it's like i've been thrown around like a bloody toy and when that ass had enough fun, i was just thrown out. not like an sympathy was given, but instead, i was replaced in less than a second. fine. so i'm unhappy that i don't seem to matter a shit. but hell to you... you, bastard.

i don't wanna see you. i don't wanna hear you. just go the f*ckin' away! ARGH!

i hate you. without a damn doubt now!

Fighter by Christina Aguillera:

(After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end, I wanna thank you
'Cause you made me that much stronger)

Well I thought I knew you,
Thinking that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't trust,
Called your bluff, time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were there, by my side,
Always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out in shame, mhm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know, just how capable
I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Ooh, yeah, oh

Never saw it coming,
All of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in
On a good thing before I'd realized your game
I heard you're going 'round
Playin' the victim now
But don't even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, mm

After all of the fights and the lies
Guess you're wanting to haunt me
But that won't work anymore
No more, uh uh, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now
And never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust, so cruel?
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies,
Disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
You won't stop me

I am a fighter and I
(I'm a fighter)
I ain't gonna stop
(I ain't gonna stop)
There is no turning back
I've had enough

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Thought I would forget, but I
I remember
Yes, I remember
I remember

Thought I would forget
I remember
Yes, I remember
I'll remember

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

oh god. you damned bastard. the anger you ivoke in me just makes my hands tremble so so much. i don't know how i'm gonna paint. but the anger in me is gonna explode if i don't.

an ass like you deserves no one.

being with you felt like cow food: chewed on and then spat out almost immediately after.