'nothing seems to work'.

this afternoon, after school, before band, i went to cheers and bought the huge packet of yupi gummies. the one with many smaller packeted gummies in it. i bought the hamburger ones. they only had those. but it was $1.40 for that huge packet. i thought i was worth it (:

and so i ate ate ate. i ate some before band. went to teach bao'er and came out and ate ate ate somemore. i felt sick half way through eating... but yet i felt hungry? nah. empty? yup... i felt empty. thats the word. i thought that maybe if i ate more it could go away. it didn't. but i tried again...

i opened the tao kae noi packet at home. and i stuffed myself all over again. so maybe binging doesn't work to fill me. but it makes me feel slightly better. slightly bloated. slightly less dreamy... slightly less dead. and that's why i'm off to dinner now (: hehs. bye.