'there's more to this isn't there?'

to start of with, thanks everyone for all the roses, flowers -fake and real alike- and chocolates and sweets! you lovely people are just so great. hehs. thanks thanks thanks again.

joshua the shrink called me just now (: haha. thank you mister for actually bothering to spend your free time on making a phonecall to me. hehe. you made my day a whole lot brighter, so thanks. of course, though, there is your sacarsm that i have to get used to, again... kinda forgot how you're like =X oh well. but as always, i've said -i have havent i?- sometimes, well, you just happen to meet some people who somehow play a special role in your life and somehow you just relate to them in a way you can't to anyone else and they just brighten your day when you talk to them, no matter what they say, most of the time. and haha, thanks shrink! =D

oh well, today for band we shifted out onto the porch. and the sun -the one beautiful thing- came shining in upon us. ha. it gave me a nice tan (: well, but as the sun shone in on my skin and turned it a pinkish colour, a leaving a burning sensation behind, i couldn't help but smile. i always loved the sun... and then an airplane flew past, and another and another... i swear i wasn't hallucinating. and only then did i realise, i miss east coast so much, at least the memory of east coast...

and then i closed my eyes, attempted to throw myself into the music, but i felt as if i was kicked off to the stars. the sun on my skin, the airplanes in the sky... everything felt so... familiar. everything felt so real. and as i closed my eyes, i could almost float back to months ago. i felt safe. well, at least for that short while... and when i opened my eyes, yeah, i could almost cry but at the same time there was this strain in my cheeks i could't deny...

i smiled.