'oh sure, all over again'.

ah yes. sitting in my cousins' house, blogging. parents' are gambling and i just played a horribly long long game of mahjong... blah. wasn't all that good but well, i won (: every now and then of course =D and yeah. thanks to the great help of Hon Teng (x haha. two brains are always better than one...

the breathing difficulty's coming all back again. the hurt. the thoughts, the damned irritating thoughts... yes. they all come flooding back into me. curse this feeling. i think it's about time i gain control, and for once, stop all these... feelings. afterall, i know i'm the only one standing here. on this empty spot here i stand, alone, praying. for what? i'm not even sure myself... i just wish for things so impossible. things i should have long locked away, away away from my mind. things of the past, but just a current fantasy. minjun, what the hell...


the little beggar girl watches the man walk away. she leans back onto the hard bricked wall behind her. she rests her tired head on it. she closes a eyes, and as if travelled back into time, she remembers the taste of the chocolate on her tongue. the smile the man carried on his face as he handed the bulk of aluminium to her... gosh was such a taste so heavenly.

and as if being brought back, no, snatched back into real life, her eyes spring open. a drop of rain lands on her bare legs... as the raindrops fall ever so fast, she leans back again and closes her eyes. maybe if she just lived in the memories, in her own land, everything so pain would disappear and go away. for once... just maybe.

Come What May ost of Moulin Rouge:

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing?
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather,
And stars may collide
But I love you (I love you)
Until the end of time(until the end of time)

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, Oh I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day