'let me free'.

i just finished chinese tuition. and i feel so in the mood to run. i want to run, free, alone. now. at this time, in the darkness, in the cold. i want to run run run, let my legs burn, let my muscles ache. i don't care. i just want to run and feel the breaking of the air. i want to feel free and relaxed. i want to let go of everything... i want to, figuratively and literally speaking, run.

oh well... back to the events of the day: i didn't get the first speaker of the debate. it didn't really affect me REALLY. it's just that i feel like i let myself down, one way or another... something in me just can't seem to forgive myself for the way i screwed up real bad. something in me is telling myself that i could have done so much better if i had tried. but oh well, Carmina deserved it bad! (: and she sure got it. so yeah, good luck to the speakers of tomorrow! good luck Carmina, Min Yi and Erica! =D you guys rock. and will always...

hehs. i'm playing the role of a reserve. take down notes for them and argument points. sigh. i don't want to cause the lost of the team. i'm gonna really really open up my ears and filter all the un-argumentable points of the opposition away and take down ALL loop-holes. yes, bias i know but hehe (x i don't really care anymore...

oh yes. for tuition, i read this compo written by a fourteen year-old, title 'my troubles at the age of fourteen' or so as translated by me =X hehe. anyway, the compo was bullshit. it was about this guy getting all troubled by the encouraging words of studies from his mum and teachers because he knows the expect a lot from him. and his duties of a class monitor also trouble him deeply...

i swear that these people have nothing better to do but get worked up over things liked these! geez. his life sounds almost perfect to EVEN have these things to 'worry' about... there are so much more things to worry about in my life. things in which rarely apply in my peers' lives. and i'm rather sure about that...

okay enough. ha. dang i want want want to run.

Turn Me On by Norah Jones:

Like a flower
Waiting to bloom
Like a lightbulb
In a dark room
I'm just sittin' here
Waiting for you
To come on home
And turn me on

Like the desert
Waiting for the rain
Like a school kid
Waiting for the spring
I'm just sittin' here
Waiting for you
To come on home
And turn me on

My poor heart
It's been so dark
Since you've been gone
After all you're the one who turns me off
But you're the only one who can turn me back on

My hi-fi is waiting for a new tune
My glass is waiting for some fresh ice-cubes
I'm just sittin' here
Waiting for you
To come on home
And turn me on
Turn me on

haha. interesting song. makes sense.. but something i wouldn't even dream of singing! xP haha. but you should try to catch it, worth listening to. Norah Jones is rather good i have to say =D