'listen to my thoughts screaming please, hear me'.

'happily ever after'. what a superficial ending. a surperficial thought... i don't like the fact that people actually think, kid themselves into thinking, happily ever after is possible. it's so agitating to think people do... and it's so agitating that it isn't possible. it's even more saddening to think that you and i weren't happily ever after...

jessica, i need you now. i need you to bring me courage, to bring me that one bold side in me, so that i can say all i have to say. so that i can cry, without any shame, in his face and tell him all i have to. so that i can stand in front of him, falling into his arms, once again. so that i can look him in the eye and not have the thought of turning away. jessica, where are you when i need you? why aren't you here for me?... you all said you'd me here when i needed you, where are you? where are any of you?

jessica, i need you.

there's so much i think i need now... is it needing or just simply wanting?